The Greatest Scapegoat

"My appearance has always been the greatest scapegoat for the inadequacies and hurt I've felt and been unable to verbalise over the years.
My physicality has changed so much through disordered eating and body dysmorphia whilst never meeting the satisfaction of my mind's eye, using words like 'ruined' to describe myself as early as 17 years old.
In recovery, I want to make her my ally. An instrument of joy. Life's better since I stopped trying to make my body smaller. She is central to pursuing all my life's passions. She has helped me become strong and bold in the soft and gentlest of ways.
Now, having gifted me a son, respecting her has been the biggest step towards respecting and loving myself. I aim to soon own all of her unapologetically, starting with this wonderful gallery of diverse and beautiful bodies."
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