I'm Just So Tired
"I use to be ashamed of this body, my small mosquito bite breasts, my flat bum, a fatty bit at the bottom of my stomach & my flat nose. I’ve never felt sexy. I’ve never felt desired. I’ve always been put down by society for not being feminine enough and not being a “classically beautiful woman”.
I’ve abused this body and mind. I’ve punched things, I drink too much, I’ve done things with people who did not respect me, I’ve let people in who did not deserve to be in my head, I’ve hurt myself for things other people have done to me. I'm not proud of what I’ve done to this body and how it’s affected those around me.
I struggle with feeling sexy. I struggle with feeling desired. I struggle with being out of control. I struggle with being in control. I struggle most days.
I am learning to accept myself, I am learning to care for myself, I am trying.
I’m just, so tired."